Multiplicity

I have decided to divide my life into a few categories today. I am not sure what I want to talk about so I will talk about everything. This is, of course, not everything that matters but everything that is taking up space in my life....and a few things that matter......

Librarylapin#1 Employee: Yesterday was a full day of the same nothingness that I have been doing for three years without change. My illusions went up and down about employment changes that may or may not happen while I wondered and worried about the other Librarylapins you will soon read about. All in all a good day of screaming at nothingness and praying to the Dilbert gods.

Librarylapin#2 Professor: Apparently, by professor, I actually mean babysitter. Yesterday was one of the those frustrating days when I wonder why I do this in the first place. I was looking at a sea of blank faces for an hour waiting for my evaluation to take place. The evaluator never came and I did not manage (for some strange reason) to make punctuation the new meaning of life for my students. I left demoralized and tired.

Librarylapin#3 Student: She is one of my favorite characters. She gets to say what she wants, wear what she wants, and feel the way she wants. After the wonderful teaching experience, I changed into my civilian clothes and went off to my class with Faulkner in my hand. I had a wonderful rant about the shadow of shadows in the shadow next to the shadow that Faulkner uses to describe darkness. You know when you use SO MANY shadows its just dark. They lose their effect. Heather said I may not like it. She was right. I am going to try though. I am going to read all of Faulkner and I am going to get it but yesterday was not the day. I think he needed an editor. Anyway it was fun in a torturous mournful kind of way.

Librarylapin#4 Girlfriend: Who? Oh yeah I exist. Poor bug, she takes such good care of me.

Librarylapin#5 Friend: I don't know how I would get through my day without the fabulous emails of a core group of fabulous friends. Phew...

That was yesterday. Today I don't want to be anyone but napgirl.